Withdrawals.

I am going crazy.

And I feel so pathetic and embarrassed, as it hasn't even been an entire day yet since I last saw Grisha. But alas, I will not see him until Friday, and my heart has sunk to a level of unbearable longing. It's as if my stomach were at my throat after pushing my lungs and heart aside, causing my insides to twist and turn. I think I wouldn't be so miserable if both of us knew he would be gone until Friday. I miss his smell, his body, his characteristic way of talking, and above all his embrace and how our bodies curl into formation like a pretzel.

I'm just not used to sleeping by myself anymore.

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